Who would think transitions even for the best reasons have their on mental health impact? During the transition, I was very excited, grateful, happy, energetic, name all those positive feelings. I mean, this was a desire I had for my career. The first six months moved so fast! From adjusting to a new system in a new country, new working sector, new languages- ‘oli otya”, people, environment, name it. By good luck- I say God ordained it. In my apartment, I got introduced to this God sent Kenyan lady who literally held a hand of her little sister. And, truth to the word, after her support with the last main thing, she transitioned.
Mh! Reality slaps. Six months later, my God sent angel has moved and that is when I realize how I have no friends. Fun fact about me is, I take time to let anyone in my inner circle. I am a deep lover who prefers few but meaningful relationships. Additionally, I am an introvert. Tell me how I am supposed to survive without my God sent lady?
During the December holidays, I stayed back. WHAT A LONELY TIME IN MY LIFE. Damn. I remember on Christmas Day going to one of the hotels and all I could see were table reservations reading, “Mukasa’s Family”, “Okello’s Family”, “Mugisha’s Family” and so on. I mean, there was no single table that had a booking for a single person. Very triggering. I literally cried and wished I was not myself. I would have called my dad but he would have said the obvious, “Just come home.”
I came back to my house feeling very sad for myself. And that is when I asked myself if my life was to end the next day, would I be confident to say I lived? I mean, for so long I have been this person who puts the needs of others first and I come last. Living is a simple world but carries a lot of weight. The introvert got triggered to a point of mindset change.
On 27 December, my first stop was the gym despite a successful story of effective home workout since 2016. A girl just needed a community. Again, trust you me, when you speak to God for a desire, the universe just coincides. Tell me why from nowhere my social media feeds starts suggesting outdoor activities groups for me? Or maybe it is the social media algorithms. Whichever it is, it worked in my favour. Anyways, that is how I joined an amazing professional outdoor activities community to hike with, I mean, we call it ‘slay’. Yes. A slaying community. I was indeed pushed out of my comfort zone as an introvert. Since then, I have made beautiful connections. Moreso, I have gotten the opportunity to be in the nature in the most beautiful ways with beautiful people making beautiful memories 🙂
Oh! And I got few people I can call close friends, closer than family. Very beautiful and grateful for it. As I write this, I am just coming back from my last slay of the year. Yeeey!!! I had a great experience including camping next to River Nile. This is what very demure, very cutesy feels for me.
I was reflecting my 2024 earlier on, and my tears rolled down- very emotional babes this one. I am proud of the girl who has learnt to look out for others but does not forget herself. A girl who likes to see people living their life but also is intentional in hers as well. I am still an introvert. I struggle in crowds but I refused to let that limit my living.
Are you like me? Stuck in different ways? What is your comfort zone? Change that mindset. Just live. Or rather, live while living.
Happy Holidays darlings! With Love, Mwendwa
Well done dear 🔥💯 better days
Thank you Dean! You have helped me mostly with the gym bit of it 🙂
Best coach ever.